About me

Allow me to begin by making it clear that I have never really wanted nor needed to 'put myself out there' and am still very unsure of taking this dive into the blogging world.  This is an experiment really, to see if it helps me and others who have found themselves in the unfortunate (or…

(V) Nightmares & Old Memories

I wanted to write something about the impact of discovering a misattributed parentage and the feelings of shock you can experience as it can make you feel like you are losing your mind at times. I want you to know those feelings are normal given the circumstances and I hope what write here helps at…

(IIII) Strangers as Family

It's all just so weird. Making connections via email and the Ancestry messaging system is all rather odd and difficult but it was a start. They say that the eyes are the windows to the soul, and for me that rings very true. Emails between my new found family and I were helpful to a…

(III) The Email

On May 14th 2018 I received this short but life shattering email from one of my new first cousins: "Lovely to hear from you.  It's really exciting isn't it to find out about a first cousin that you weren't aware of.  I am not used to finding family members but does that mean your biological father…

(II) Too much

To survive my mind closed down. It was like a thick fog had descended and I was an unthinking unfeeling automaton. It was the only way I could function at all and I had to keep on functioning so I could make the arrangements for her funeral. It seemed no one else was coping so…

(I) How it all began…

It's funny how a simple comment, remark or conversation can take you on a journey that you never would have thought possible, not in a million years.  And yet, here I am over 4 years after the event still questioning how this could possibly be true whilst trying to navigate through the myriad of questions…